i almost killed myself with lsd 8 months agoi cant stop thinking about it
why nigger?Your fortune: Good Luck
>>112i took too much and accidentally triggered psychosis, the aim was to expand knowledge and understanding of the hardware im running on
>>118what did you see?
the entire idea of reality is inside the head, and there is no reality outside of it, and there cannot be any outside of it
>>121sounds like your thinking wayy too hard about it
>>123I sat down for hours trying to explain but i just gave up and wiped it as usualI wish there were words to explain it, but this just assures me that everyone is locked into their own made up reality. An illusion so strong we cant escape it or even fathom that there is infinitely many perceptions outside of our own that not only can be valid but exponentially superior.Now ego will come into play making you feel angry and feeding you a burning denial "other ways of perception cant exist" that you arent allowed to see by your superiors inside the psyche. That is because ego doesnt want its host body to be a captive, because being a captive in nature lowers chances of your survival. It also explains why people like liberty a lot and dont wanna be slaves, they dont even wanna go to jail because of it. Ego is a defensive mechanism and it makes you believe you are separate from the universe so that you work for yourself and not the universe, and so that you dont identify with anything besides your own mind and body. Egos only purpose is to rationalize the psyche as a whole to fuel it with baseless beliefs that survival must be pursued at all cost (to prove it decide which you prefer: you getting stabbed or another random human getting stabbed, ego will make you pick the latter, even if you deny is consciously subconscious will override it if it came to the real situation).
Ego is also a program inside the mind that runs constantly and its outside from your consciousness. Consciousness is that which you call yourself and its where you are locked, ego feeds subconscious with decisions and subconscious approves them and forces onto you. It has access to all your memory and it will form desires from whatever you ever saw to infinitely pursue the increase of your chances of survival. Mindless pursuit of wealth, health, position in society, power, lots of sex and such stem from it, fueling you to do it and you never question why (imagine if you could choose to either fuck or watch it from a cuck chair, any healthy man would choose to fuck, if you didnt they could suggest you treatment for "lack of libido", even doctors in this case of lack of egotistical drive will call you ill and offer treatment, thats how deep ego goes).Ego feeds you with any stories to keep you in line, so that you identify with the rest of your mind as a whole. Failure to identify yourself as a part of your body usually causes death so it makes you think you are one unity as a mind and body (even though its not really the case), yet still keeps you separate from the universe.
Seeing all these mechanisms fall apart in real time with a fluid mind with no identity and no clinging and no bias. You grasp every fracture of these processes as they fall apart. Eye opening to how curated human experience is. As if there was nothing more to life besides being a servant to these processes and everything else is just to keep you brainwashed inside this elaborate illusion because all you were made for is to perpetuate yourself long enough to reproduce and then instinctually keep your offspring alive as long as you are alive (any old parent would trade their own life for their kid, so the kid perpetuates and completes this cycle again). Like a robot and a submissive tool to what nature made you, there is nothing else to do in life by design.In afterworlds there is something that computates it but there is no "you" inside. No life and death. No biases towards heaven or hell. You have no origin and no destination. There is no time and space and matter. You arent judged and you wont judge. Its a brief moment where purest reality spills outside of filters of the subconscious into you directly and you see it as it is. Processes are so fractured and localized that you slip away from their power, to see what the world looks like for the first time and see through the illusion.I see ego in the words i am typing, i am not free of it. I was someone else on comedown, way wiser than me.Side effects: psychosis.
>>129schizo fortune:Your fortune: You will be molested by a close family friend
>>178this guy fortune:Your fortune: HITLAAARRR
>>182this nigga fortune:Your fortune: You will be molested by a close family friend
>>184WHAT?
>>184monger got that 🍞y tho:Your fortune: Very Bad Luck
>>186what what e doe?
Op needs to realize there is absolutely no such thing as a unbiased mind, he's not 'inlightened' only a good for nothing junkie and hedonist.
>>348Waow
>>348i was one with incomprehensible yet real magic, i or whatever was of me was in temporary nirvana, feeling with all of me that sensed that form is emptiness and emptiness is form and that it is natural, that all form is only real inside my mind which has no basis in reality, that all reality i saw up to that point was ultimately imaginary and just as imaginary as the afterworlds i was in, that deciding which world is more real is my bias and the bias disappeared and psychosis kicked in :3i am biased and there is nothing i can do i wish i could come back to that mental state to learn from it again but im not risking more damage
>>110>killing yourself on lsdjust do fent instead nigga